Emily

I had an amazing trip to Idaho for Christmas and it really gave me a better view for what my choices are, it really showed me what my life could be like.  I greatly enjoyed spending time with my sister and brother-in-law.  My Aunt Tami took senior pictures for me, which I am eternally grateful for!  And I got to spend quality time with both my Grandma Harlow, and my Great Grandma Eggleston.  My teachers are enjoying assigning us tons of work, and though this may sound weird, I am trying to enjoy the work and really get into it because I know this is my last semester of high school ever.I have gotten so much schoolwork that my shoulders are bruised from my bag cause its so heavy... whats wrong with that picture?

  Last week I had a dear friend pass away and it effected me greatly.  This is the first death that has really gotten to me, and I miss him very much.  I have a hard time grasping the concept that I won't see him again in this life. I keep expecting him to come back, even though I know he won't.  Even though my life goes on the same as before, I have changed as a person.  I find my future to be on a thread right now and I don't know how it will end up.  I don't really know where I will go to college or what I will do with my life.  I do know that I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my future, and then James died and something inside me clicked and now I want to do something else, however I am not sure it is a good idea yet... I am praying that I'll find answers.  Meanwhile I am avidly applying for scholarships and hoping to get at least one of them.  As for my dear friend James, he felt like family to me, he was more family than I really got from any of my real family out there.  His death broke my heart and greatly impacted my work place.  He was the dishwasher at pizza classic.  He died the same week that Megan left to continue her college career.  We can't seem to get the atmosphere the same.  James was really a unique person, someone who changed lives... I know he changed mine.  He had a big heart, my life won't be the same without him.  He taught me so much, lessons I wouldn't have learned with out him and his niece Megan.  I move on and try to take life positively.  If not for myself, for him.  He always had a smile on his face, and he really taught me how to live life and enjoy it.  I choose to be positive in honor of James, I want to live my life in a way that will make him proud.