Dear Blog,
today is like the longest freaking day of my life. I woke up 25 minutes late for work and freaked out and quickly got dressed, threw my hair in a pony and headed out the door. Needless to say it wasn't the best start of my day. So I get to work and everyone is like, "welcome to work Emily"... ya I might get written up for being late, not quite sure yet. Sometimes I think that I will forever be tired. It seems that no matter how many hours I sleep it is still hard to get up. I've had a lot on my mind lately. Trying to decide what to do with my life. My mind has been heavy with trying to figure out how I will be able to go to school, work, plan a wedding, and breath. I am struggling just to survive right now and I wasn't sure how I could add more to my plate. So I talked to Aaron and we discussed our options. We decided it would be a good idea for me to defer a semester and work full time. You see I have enough money to pay for housing or to pay for tuition but not for both. And there is no way I could add paying for a wedding on top of that. My stress level was at the roof. We both agreed that would be really good for me to take a semester off and just work and be able to focus on wedding details. Along with wedding details we have to figure out where we will live after we get married, and many other things. I also need to step back and think about a realistic degree plan because while I would love to become an Occupational Therapist, and I would love to travel the world, neither of those dreams are realistic if I want to be a mother. I can not wait to 6 years to have kids and I can't handle going to school full time with children, they would have to go to daycare and that is something I wouldn't ever want to do unless it was a last resort. So I am taking a semester off, to breath and take in the changes in my life, I am going to work 8-4 Monday through Friday, and work on the wedding and helping Aaron study for his classes so he can get straight A's. I can't tell you how much my stress level has gone down at just the thought of taking a semester off. I know none of you think this is a good idea, but Aaron and I agree that it would be the best thing for me to do at this point. As for my job I am starting to really like what I do... except for days like today but hey my day is almost over with.
Chow!

The Best of News!!

I am engaged!! I know you have all heard by now and probably think I am a crazy lunatic (which may be true... lol). Yes I have only known him for 2 and 1/2 months. Yes I got engaged after only a month of serious dating. Yes I love him with all my heart. Aaron and I met in our FHE group. I've known that I wanted to marry him for quite some time, he is honestly the most amazing person I have ever known in my entire life. He is everything on my list and then some. He will be an amazing father to my children. Although I knew I wanted to marry him I hadn't prayed about it until last week. To be honest I was scared to pray about it because I loved him so much and if the Lord told me 'no' then it would break my heart. Finally after talking with Haley one night she told me that if I truly felt like it was right then I shouldn't have anything to worry about. And that if I got a no then the Lord knows whats best. So that night at like two in the morning I went out on my patio and looked at the moon and the stars and marveled at the beauty of the earth. I got cold fast and quickly returned to my apartment. Everyone was asleep so it was actually quiet. I knelt down and told heavenly father why I wanted to marry Aaron. I told Heavenly Father everything, from the first date to the last and I told him every good quality I had found in him. I told him how good he was to me and how he had become my best friend. I told him that I truly wanted to spend eternity with him and how I would be lost without him. I told him how I missed him every second that he was gone even if it was only for 5 minutes. I told Heavenly Father everything I could think of and I asked the question. I asked if it was right that I should marry him. I was patient and waited. I felt peaceful inside like I do when I am praying and I know the Lord is listening and cares. I felt like I was floating. I definately didn't get a no and for a regular question I would say that was a yes, but for such a big decision I didn't feel as though I had gotten a strong enough answer. I talked to him about it and he had prayed also. He had gotten a definate yes. So we decided to get married but I was super scared and nervous... it was such a huge decision you know. So we decided to pray together. Before I started praying I had fear running through my bones. As I prayed I told Heavenly Father that we had decided to get married but that I was really scared. I asked that he take that fear away and comfort me to not be scared. Aaron and I both talked to God about marriage and by the end of the prayer all my fear had been washed away and the spirit filled my heart. I knew then that I was to marry him for sure. I had gotten a definate yes. So it was official we were going to get married. On Monday we went and looked at rings together. I found a ring that I absolutely loved. We found a ring he liked too. That night he proposed to me. He showed up at 8:30 in a suit and tie with flowers and boy did he look good. He is the cutest thing in the world. Then we left and he blind-folded me so I couldn't see where we were going. He drove around for quite some time so I was really confused. Once we got where we were going he helped me out of the car and walked me to a bench and sat me down. Then he took off my blindfold but told me to keep my eyes closed. When he told me to open my eyes he was on his knee. He asked me to marry him and I immediately said yes. I wish you could see what I saw in that moment. We were at the temple and the light of the temple shone on his face. Apart from the temple and him the only thing I could see was the stars above. It was heavenly. I saw eternity right there and greeted it with open arms. I love him so much. We stayed there for a few minutes marveling at the beauty of the temple and the stars and eachother. Then our hands were going numb so we decided to go. We then went to Cocoa Bean Cafe' which is a cupcake and hot chocolate cafe. We both got hot chocolate and a cupcake. Then we went and told everyone and showed them the rings. Some of my roommates had been hiding and taking pictures so that was sweet. Then we watched a Walk to Remember together and he really liked it. He gets so into movies its adorable:). My computer is dying so I better get off but know this. I love him with all my heart and even though we only dated for a short time, I know he is the one for me and I can't wait to spend eternity with him. He is the most amazing, sweet, patient, adorable boy I have ever known and I am the luckiest girl alive to get to marry him. The wedding is set for August 4th, 2012 in the Denver Colorado Temple. We already shceduled the temple so yes it is official. :)

Dear Blog,
This is my 100th blog post. Can you believe it!! A day for celebration for sure. Well today has been an interesting day. I have 2 LONG papers coming up that I will be spending all my time on. Today I declared a major. YAY!!! lol. I had never really thought about going into this major, Aaron mentioned it once but I brushed it aside because I didn't really know what exactly it meant. So anyways I went in to declare my major as Speech Pathology. Turns out I probably should have gone to a different school if I wanted to go into Speech Pathology. So I was about to leave and my adviser says 'what is it that interests you about speech pathology?'. So I told him and he said have you ever thought about Occupational Therapy? I said not really.. I don't really know what it is. So he told me about it and I fell in love right then and there. So we set up a graduation plan for me. There isn't a major specifically for Occupational Therapy because it is like a graduate program thing, like you have to get a masters. So we looked at the pre-requisites and found a major that filled most of them, and then we added two small clusters to fulfill the rest of my pre-requisites. So my major is now Exercise Physiology, and then I can after I get a bachelors in that then i can specialize in Occupational Therapy. I talk to people every day who are in so much debt it has taken over their whole life. I am really grateful I got to work here because I get to see how much something little like a late payment can affect your credit so much. Credit is so important, and people get screwed over for the littlest things. I am excited to get this degree because I can work part time and still have a family and still make bank and help people. I took my math test today and fell asleep three times today.. I got a whopping 67... So my A may go down a bit... Needless to say i need to get more sleep. I came home and fell asleep for 2 hours. Then I headed to work.
I am starting to get closer with Aaron, I know this because when I say goodbye at night it gets harder and harder and my heart hurts a little. Its crazy to think that we have only been dating a month. I know him so well. In just one short month I have come to love this Colorado boy. I have come to know his little quirks, and everything that makes him who he is. I spend so much time with him it would be weird and sad if I didn't see him one day. Spring Break is coming up and I asked off for work about two weeks ago so i can go to Colorado with him. It's going to be a long week if I can't go with him, I suppose it would be good for us, but it would also be good for us to both get a little break from life and have fun for a week. Anyways life is still pretty hectic but not so hectic that I can't handle it. I haven't been able to Skype with my family much lately because I have been so crazy busy but that's okay, because they know I love them. Well today i am on credit leads at work and I am not having much luck. No one else here is either. I only have an hour left. I can't wait to get out of here, I have got to get started on an outline and summary thing that will take hours to do. Well Love ya'll bunches!! =D

Dear Blog,
Well I know I just wrote like an hour ago but after I got off Aaron and I started talking. We decided to go outside. Being outside in the sun with him brightened my day. We went and got donuts and chocolate milk and sat on the bench and talked. We decided to talk about things that we are grateful for. Here are some of the things we listed: family, the sun, the trees, the birds, the flowers, chocolate milk, popcorn, girlfriends, boyfriends, love, warm air, good weather, hugs, lots of hugs, comfortable shoes, make-up, nail polish, painted nails, movies, and more hugs lol. There were many things we were grateful for. In that moment I was most grateful that he could cheer me up. I was grateful that he cared and that he took me by the hand and cheered me up. I don't know why I was so down today but I was happy that he was there to make me happier:) Between him and Tauni i know the Lord is keeping an eye out for me:) Tauni keeps makes me smile and laugh when I am down and reminds me of who I really am.

Dear Blog,
I am sitting in the living room with Aaron. He is working on homework and I am trying to be positive. Sometimes girls just get emotional ya know? I feel like crawling in a hole and never climbing out, that way I wouldn't have to worry about all these things I have to do and these decisions I have to make. Today I am worried about what direction my life is headed and whether it is the right one and whether I am ready for it or not. Those of you who know me know that I hate making decisions. Yet in this time in my life everyone is asking me to make decisions. It scares me because what if I mess up? It's only the rest of my life on the line ya know. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I can't decide upon a career. As far as Aaron goes, I love him. I've never been happier with someone in my life before. As we get more serious I get more scared because it's a lot of commitment. Aaron is done with his homework now so chow!

This week I have been a lot better at getting to sleep on time. Or at least earlier. Apart from sunday, I have been in bed by 12:30 everynight. Aaron and I made an agreement to go home by 10:45 each night so we can both get more rest. Last night he didn't leave till 11:15 (that was my fault lol) but it is improvement. My immune system seems to think it can give me a run for my money. My throat is hurting and swollen, and my stomach has been upset for like 4 days straight. I'm not sure what it thinks it is doing. I have things to do and places to be, I can not afford to get sick again. I went and bought some caugh drops today though and I am hoping that will help. I am going out with the Rials today. It will be fun to see other Arkansans here in Rexburg. I keep meaning to see Erin more but I have just been so incredibly busy. I only have a month left of this semester if you would believe that, and I have so many projects due in the upcoming weeks, I have no idea how I am going to get them all done. Every class has projects and finals and what not coming up. I am already dead as is, I don't know how I will find the time or energy to get what I need done. Well I better go cause I am in my science class right now. Love ya!

Dear Blog,
I am slightly out of breath because I just ran back to work. I went on a 30 minute lunch break and took a shower and came back. I feel great now:) I wish I could listen to music while I was at work cause sometimes it can get boring. I painted my toe nails today while talking to people. They look great. Then I tried to do a second layer on my fingernails (I painted them yesterday) and I totally jacked up my right hand... sad thing is I don't have nail polish remover with me so they are stuck looking like that until I am off work. Right now there is some issue with the scripts online not coming up so we are just sitting here waiting for them to fix the problem. Last night Aaron and I watched A Knights Tale, which is a great movie by the way. For the first time in weeks I was in bed and asleep by midnight. I am still pretty tired but feel better since I got 7 hours of sleep rather than 3 or 4. I was going to work on my math while I was at work, but there are too many interruptions, so I can't concentrate. My weekends go by so much faster now that I have a job. My roommates say I take a lot of naps but I have too! I have like no breath time. Normally I would say Sundays are my free time but I don't get out of church until 2 and then there is all the visiting teaching and home teaching and laundry and homework that you have to do. And I like to see Aaron too. So really my only free day is Thursday in which I am in class until 2 and then I usually come home and take a nap, and then go hang out with Aaron, usually involving homework. I am so utterly exhausted. But I am enjoying the college life. I absolutely LOVE my roommates. I LOVE this school, this church, and the fact that Skype exists so I can keep up with my family. I LOVE being with Aaron. I really can't complain too much about my life because its so great. I am surrounded my so many blessings. They still haven't gotten it fixed so I think I am going to get up and walk a bit... stretch my legs ya know! Love ya! :) ♥

Heyy!!
So I've got exactly 9 minutes to spare so I figure why not blog?! Well I this week has officially worn me out. I haven't gotten to bed till 2 or 3 these past couple nights which just killed me off. I still made it to all my classes remarkably. I am starting to really really really like Aaron... like A LOT!! I love every minute I spend with him, and I miss him every minute I am away from him. I feel like I want to do everything with him. I see him everyday, usually twice a day except in special circumstances when I only get to see him once. He walks me to class every day which starts off my morning wonderfullly. On mornings where I would usually be in a bad mood, whatever is wrong instantly evaporates when he walks in the door and gives me a hug, grabs my hand and walks me to class. Then I usually see him at the end of the day after work. I usually go to his place to do homework since it is a lot quieter over there(and I like spending time with him:)). He always walks me home then. So he starts and ends my day everyday. I've met his family over skype and they seem soooo nice. He has a great relationship with his parents which makes me love him even more. I know all of you are probably thinking he is just another one of my guys but its different this time. Aaron is everything I could ever ask for in a guy. He is everything on my list. The other guys I have dated before met some of the requirements but not all, and to be honest I have never liked a guy the way I like Aaron. He doesn't drive me crazy which is crazy in itself because I've never met anyone who didn't drive me crazy after a while. He is so understanding that I'm pretty sure I could tell him anything and it wouldn't alter what he thought of me. I am so happy to have him in my life. He amazes me how he can have so many positive characteristics... I know I am probably driving you all crazy talking about him so much but he is just such a big part of my life right now. Last night I saw that look in his eye. I've seen that look from a total of 4 guys in my life. Its that look where their walls come down and you see how much they truly care. Everytime I see this look I am flattered, but also saddened. It scares me to see that look. It truly goes straight to their soul. I never felt I could completely return that look. But last night when I saw that look my heart melted and for the first time ever I welcomed it. It didn't scare me at all. I wanted him to look at me like that forever. I wanted to stay in his arms forever but instead I said goodnight and went inside. I can't really explain to you all the reasons why Aaron is better than best. He is the most wonderfully amazing man. He is a mixture of my 3 brothers and my dad. Take the good qualities in all of them and put them into one person and you have Aaron. I never thought someone like him really existed. How could he? As a little girl you dream of this guy that you think would be your own Prince Charming. Then as you grow older you see the guys in your high school class with you and you slowly come to accept that your Prince Charming doesn't exist. In high school all I really hoped for was to find a guy who would accept that I was a virgin and that that wasn't going to change. The 2 guys I found I dated. They weren't the best guys in the world but I came to care for them. My family watched as I told them I hoped for a possible future with them(at different times lol). Then as I was asking my brother for advice he said something that lit a small spark. A spark that soon grew into a flame of fire. He said 'Emily. There are so many greater guys out there. You can do better than this!' I told him, 'Alex I don't think there are. Good guys, they don't really exist, so I found a guy good enough'. He said to me, 'Emily think back to that guy you've always dreamed of, think of him. He does exist you just have to get out of here and go find some Mormons, think about missionaries! There are so many missionaries that are good and cute, and worthy. You deserve someone like that, not the guy you are with. You can do so much better'. Thanks to my brother Alex, I came out here with hope. Yes I came for an education, but I also came because I had to. I had to come somewhere where I could hope again. I needed to see that there were people with standards, not only guys but people in general. I love Hazen I really do. But it is hard to see anything else other than whats there when you live there. While here I have met some amazing people. It is so good to be around other people with the same beliefs as you. There really are good guys. My brother was right. And these guys, they are better than good. To be particular, Aaron is amazing. If you are thinking about coming out here you definately need to. The education is wonderful, and the people are wonderful. When God is the main focus, it has to be wonderful. Well class starting now. May I say a personal thanks to my brother Alex for not letting me give up. And may I say again, Aaron is amazing and I couldn't be more grateful that he is in my life. :)